I haven't been on here for a very long time and had difficulty actually finding my blog :-/
I reread my blogs and thought 'who in the world wrote this? Me?
It has been a long time......
Much has gone on.....
I think I am finally settling into myself .. finding out I'm ok, semi normal (whatever normal means)
happy with who I am....
Growing up (I dont have and never did have a good memory) I felt in general I had a pleasant childhood.
From what I understand this is not so for some of my siblings.
Isn't that how life molds us.... funny that.
Even with all this molding going on how we respond/react is entirely up to us...
I have been put so far out of my comfort zone lately and realized it didnt kill me and I did not harm another living soul either :))
I like stability and calm and knowing what the plan is...... well I am living the opposite... for now..
1.quit my job of 12 years(comfort) to another job to which I am not very good at(huge discomfort)
2.my house up for sale, not sure where I'll live if it sells.... holy jumpin dina!!!
3. looking to move an hour + away so will need to quit my job, again, and be unemployed :-/
4. my stepson has ADHD among other challenges .... fun times too..
On the plus side I married Walter who is the calming water in my life and also the ying to my yang etc etc etc :)) (insert 'soulmate, sweetie pie, honey bunch' here) He keeps me sane.
Until you are stretched beyond what you know or desire you dont realize what you are capable of...
( no not murder, sheesh!)
There are somethings you just have to realize and it comes with time/age:
you cannot control life, it only seems like you can...for a time...then life takes over again..learn to adapt
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you cannot control other people and make them who you think they should be... bad bad idea...
putting others before yourself is a win win situation...it works and you'll be happier for it..."me 1st' doesnt work...
and most most importantly give thanks for all things, good and no so good.... they are lessons to make us and to mold us into who and what He desires and knows we can be.
So.... bring it on .... I wonder what I'll be up to next month???
